No Worries, No Fear

I’ve been under a lot of stress lately. Under is such an appropriate word to go before stress. It is like being buried alive (but I’m the one with a shovel in the dirt). It is shouldering an unnecessary weight and trying to carry it with my own limited strength. Every aspect of my life screams for attention. Or so I think. I allow myself to be so driven by the squeaky wheels, perfectionism, my workaholic tendencies and self-imposed timeline.  How easily I fall into this trap time and time again. And then I read:

“Unless the Lord builds the house, it’s builders labor in vain … In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat.” (Psalm 127:1-2)

Ouch. That’s me. That’s a workaholic. Toil and trouble. I can brew up a bubbling cauldron of it, operating on my will instead of God’s. Only the call of Jesus will make walking on water possible. But like da Vinci, I am trying to construct floating shoes. Toil isn’t just working hard—it’s long, strenuous, fatiguing labor. What is the appeal? I ask myself repeatedly. 

Living in faith instead of fear is a daily challenge for me. In my heart I know that I am a lily of the field (Matthew 6:25-34)—loved and cared for without the need to toil, but in practice I can find myself wilting. In bouts of stubborness, I’ll allow myself get to the point of utter desperation before I confess that I am not in control.

Will my husband survive another round of layoffs? Will my anxious son pass the test?  How long can my father survive leukemia? How will I survive the change coming my way? All I have to do is let go. I can cast all my anxieties on my heavenly father because he cares for me (1 Peter 5:7). The plan is not mine. I do not need to try to operate on my own strength. When at last I let go, I feel his presence. He was there all along. The struggle wasn’t necessary. I find rest. 

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. (Philippians 4:6) 

I pause to listen, and hear anew—the innocence in my son’s incessant chatter, the music of my life, the still small voice, my inspiration.

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2 responses to “No Worries, No Fear

  • toshowthemjesus

    Thanks so much for sharing! So many of us struggle with stress and anxiety and it’s so true that we bury ourselves. Praise God for his word that lifts us up out of the miry clay!

  • Lisa

    Can relate perfectly to this,
    “Living in faith instead of fear is a daily challenge for me. In my heart I know that I am a lily of the field (Matthew 6:25-34)—loved and cared for without the need to toil, but in practice I can find myself wilting. In bouts of stubborness, I’ll allow myself get to the point of utter desperation before I confess that I am not in control.”

    I’m so thankful for the joy we receive when we do finally call out in desparation.

    Thanks for sharing.

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